Chapter Title: Chapter 15
Characters: James, John
Summary: John and James get ready for the show. But Justin breaks the deal!!
“I can’t do this I’m sorry” John said as his eyes widened with fear. He looked outside at the huge screaming crowd of people. They were starring the limo. His breathing was accelerated therefore he took in one fast breath after another. John Mayer, the expected country star, was trembling only at the thought that he should go outside, face the crowd. He wiped the sweat off his face and jumped feeling something touched him.
“John look at me, don’t look out there” James said lifting his hand to John’s face. He placed his fingers on his cheek and did his best to get the country singer to turn and face him.
“There are way too many people” John mumbled closing his eyes.
“See I know you couldn’t…” Justin angrily started.
“Shut the fuck up, do your job and let me do mine” James said turning John’s face towards him. “John, keep your eyes on me not them.”
“I…I…” John said trying to look away.
“Eyes on me” James repeated gently. “So, tell me what you would like to do after you get this small part over with." James continued trying to keep eye contact with the shaking man.
“I wanna…. watch the race.” John answered within seconds.
“Well we get to do that in a sweat and in the pits.” James said. “What else do you want to do?” He asked lowering his hand. John’s eyes were now locked on him. He laced his fingers around Johns and held them tight to assure him he was here only for him.
“I wanna get my picture with the 20 car.” John said.
“John, look, none of what you want do is going to happen unless you sing for those people.” James said slowly.
“But I can’t” John whispered looking down.
“See I knew he couldn’t do it” Justin said opening the glove box. “I hate to do this to you, but...”
“What? No! No, I’m ok” John almost shouted. “I don’t want that. Not again.”
“Justin what the fuck are you doing?” James yelled.
“Sir I think the only thing you are doing is upsetting him even more. And I should remind you we are in a parking lot full of policemen and women,” Smith said looking back at James. He winked at him.
“Let me do my job,” James said again taking John’s pale face into his hands.
“Why don’t you both shut the fuck up?!” Justin barked lowing the needle down out of site. Then he put it back into his pocket. “You should just drive, nobody’s interested in what you think,” he said looking at Smith.
“I’d hate to see you go to the jail on John’s big day sir” Smith said calmly.
“John calm down please, you are not getting that shot, believe me,” James said trying to reassure John.
“Ok, I’m ok now,” John said as James ran his hand over his face a few times.
“Can I get chili fries?” John asked cautiously.
“If you sing you can get 2 fucking orders!” Justin exclaimed.
“See we are going to have a good time,” James said.
John nodded. His breathing was calming down but his grip on James’s hand had not loosened up yet. He wanted James to be with him whatever happens. The limo came to a stop and someone opened the door.
“John I’m so glad you are here. I’m Jim,” the young man said as James got out.
“Hey, wait, you're not John! What...” he frowned stepping back.
“Nope, I'm not. I’m John's best friend” James said as Justin got
out of the car as well. Then he reached in and removed his backpack and hung it over his shoulder.
“Oh, I’m sorry sir but you can’t take that in the track with you,” Jim informed him.
“Oh, I’m sorry, but yeah I can. I’m a diabetic” James said holding his arm up so the man could see the band he was wearing. He looked at it closely then his eyes moved to face James.
“May I see what is inside? Sorry, but I must ask you to show me it if you want take it with you inside,” Jim said as John got out of the limo. He walked over to James and reached for his hand. Justin taped him in the side with his elbow as James opened the bag. Jim looked in it a few times and then, without a word, smiled and went up to John.
“John we are so pleased that you decided to make your first public appearance here with us.” Jim said with a wide fake smile.
“I didn’t do it, Justin did” John said nervously moving over to James.
“John is a bit shy.” Justin rolled his eyes. “So if you could take us to the dressing room so he can get ready.”
“There're a few fans waiting to meet him” Jim said. “I will...”
“What?” John said backing up. “I can’t no…” he started to stutter.
“No one told me about this. I said he was only going to sing and that’s it,” Justin frowned crossing his arms.
“Well it’s just a few fans. I didn’t think it would be a problem.” Jim said facing them.
“ Next time you should think. Well it is a problem. I’m sorry but John is here to sing and see the race, not to meet with fans. Next time I need to be informed of anything like that” Justin said. “Our dressing room please?”
Jim let out a deep breath. “I will lead the way.” He said. John looked at James waiting for some words of encouragement.
“It’s ok,” James said softly. “You don’t have to meet anyone right now, don't worry.”
John nodded and followed them to the room.
“This is John’s room. It should have everything in here you had asked for.” Jim said still sounding upset. He pushed the door open and John walked in, James right behind him.
“The other room is for the rest of you. I will be back to show you where to go” He said walking off. Justin pushed the door open.
“What a fucking ass hole!” he exclaimed looking around the room. “I think my crapper is bigger then this hole in the hall. I hope to fucking god John’s room is better!”
“I think Jim was rather upset,” Smith said.
“I think you should just shut the fuck up and leave me alone” Justin said facing his father.
“Good, I’m going to look around” Smith said walking out. “You’ll call me when you need me right.”
Justin waved him off with out saying a word.
“You better hope your fuck boy can get John to sing” Justin said turning to Amy.
“He will” she said. “Please god let him do this” she prayed walking over to the window.
John looked around the room and sat on the bed. “This is a nice room” he sighed. “Do you think he’ll win? Can I have a bottle of water?” John asked wiping his face.
“Who will win and why in the world would you ask me if you can have something to drink?” James wondered.
“The 20 car.” John said picking up a bottle of water. He stopped seeing a bottle of Coke and picked it up. “Sorry, it's a habit” he said taking a drink.
“That is the first thing that is going to change when I get you away from here. You can eat when you want and drink when you want” James said angrily. “And I hope he wins” he walked over to John and sat down next to him. John lifted James's arm and glanced at hit watch.
“91” John said, "is that good?"
“Yeah that’s very good” James said pulling him close. “Don’t worry about me”
“I can’t help it” John said looking at the watch again. “You’re all I got”
“What is the first thing you want to do when we get away” James asked placing his arms around John’s chest.
“Stop wearing these” John said holding up his foot. “I hate cowboy boots. They hurt my feet” he sighed.
“And they make them smell too” James said looking away and covering his nose.
“What? No way!” John said.
“John’s got stinky feet,” James said smiling at him.
“I can do this” John suddenly said touching James’s face.
“Good” James said pulling him close. He placed a soft kiss on his lips, then on his neck. His hands slid down to his belt and started to undo it.
But John took his hands and pulled them up to his chest and laced his fingers with James’s.
“What’s wrong?” James wondered.
“Nothing. Just hold me please.” John said letting his body fall onto James’s. James placed his hands on the country singer's back and pulled him even closer. He pulled one hand free and traced the outline of John’s face and jaw a few times.
“I love you” John broke the silence.
“I love you too” James said. John was calmed and relaxed now.
“Can you sing?” John asked.
“Oh yeah, I’m really good, as long as I’m in my car with the radio turned all the way up,” James smiled.
“But then no one could hear you” John said seriously.
James smiled and kissed him on the cheek. “That’s the whole ideal.”
“Oh I see” John suddenly said after a while he was looking at James.
“What’s up?” James asked.
“Do you think you could stand on the stage with me. Hold me just like this when I sing.” John asked closing his eyes.
“No, but I will be right where you can see me” James said. "Don't worry."
“Promise” John asked.
“I promise” James replied.
“Good” John said. “I want to lay just like this until I have to go on stage” he said slowly.
“That works me for me,” James said playing with John’s hair.
“Don’t mess it up. Justin will be mad” John said.
“John you will be wearing a hat out there” James reminded him.
“Oh yeah” John said. “I know that” he jumped hearing a knock on the door.
“Are you guys dressed” Justin called out. He held the syringe in his hand.
“No” John said sitting up. James smiled at him and shock is head. “Liar” he mouthed.
“You better be, you go on stage in 10 minutes” Justin said pushing the door open.
He looked at John and smiled. He held the needle up.
“What? No. I didn’t do anything wrong” John started to tremble again. “I’m ok, I can do this.”
“I’m sure you can John but I just don’t trust you or fuck boy” Justin said walking over to John.
“Justin what the fuck are you doing?” James yelled. He felt himself being lifted off the bed. He tried to pull away but couldn’t.
“I can’t take any chance fuck boy” Justin said walking over to John with a needle in his hand.
John fell to his knees and started to beg. “Justin please I’m sorry, I'll try harder next time. Please don’t. I’m sorry” he cried out as tears ran down his face.
“Shh. Now be a good boy and relax” Justin said lifting up John’s sleeve.
“Oh god, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. Please don’t be mad at me” John cried out as Justin tried the band around his arm.
“Get your fucking hands off me” James yelled doing everything he could to move the large man of him. But he easily had 100 pounds on him and James really wasn't that strong.
John looked away and closed his eyes. He couldn't believe this was happening to him again.
“That’s a good boy” Justin said as he pushed the needle in John’s arm.
“I didn’t mean to let you down” John said as tears filled his eyes. Justin removed the needle and took the band off his arm.
“You got less then 10 minutes. “You better pull it together or there will be a lot more of this” He said. “Let the fuck boy go. He’s got work to do” Justin said as the man let James fall to the ground.
“Fucking asshole. We had a deal!” James screamed standing up and rushing over to John.
“The only deal I care about is the one that will get John to sing. This is the only way” Justin said walking out.
John lowered himself to the ground. “Shit” he said holding his arm.
James picked up the needle. “John calm down, it’s ok now,” he said lifting him up.
“What? No it’s not. I let you down. I let everyone one down.” He said wiping his face.
“It’s not going to hurt you” James said smiling.
“Why are you smiling” John asked looking at the needle then his arm. “It’s not working. I can’t feel anything. What is going on? What did he give me.” he very fast in one breath.
“Yeah it is. It’ just vitamins that’s all” James kept on smiling.
“Vitamins? Wait when did you do that?” John said.
“I didn’t, Smith did” James said helping John get up. “He did it. So you’ll have to thank him later,” James said.
John rubbed his arm. “Well it still hurt though” John said complaining.
“Wuss” James said taking his hand.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” John said softly.
“Because I was worried Justin would know something was up,” James said. “I’m sorry” he looked down.
John looked at him and smiled. “I’m not a wuss. I seemed to remember me giving you a shot because it made you sick” John said.
“What no, that never happened” James said.
“Ok ladies, it’s time to rock and roll” Justin yelled. Jim had come to his room. He looked very unhappy.
“You’ll be where I can see you, right?” John asked nervously looking at James.
“Yeah just like the other night.” James smiled.
John took a deep breath and walked towards the door. “Let's do this shit” he said walking out. James picked up his bag and followed John out of the room. They walked over to Justin.
“Sorry I had to do that John. No hard feeling," Justin said.
“No, no hard feeling” John replied and followed Justin out of the room. He looked ahead and saw James. He quicken this pace to reach him. James stepped into place and looked at John.
“You can do this” James said as he placed a pair of ear plugs in Johns’ ears.
“I love you” James said and kissed him. John forced as smile as Justin placed a hat on his head.
“I can do this” John said over and over.
“Ok John you’re on” Justin said. “Just like the other night” he said giving him a slight push.
“Ladies and gentlemen please give a warm welcome to John Mayer who will be singing the National Anthem.”